"Just a small one."
"Red wine is good for you, right?"
"Large, of course."
"Go on, fill it right up!"
And it went on and on and on - for nearly 12 years. From a glass a night to a bottle nearly every night (sometimes more) and even more again at the weekend. And a Thursday and a Sunday night count as the weekend? Of course they do. And Monday too.
I have everything I have ever wanted. A husband, two children (one of each) and two dogs. My family are amazing. I'm so proud of them.
It's time to stop. I need to stop drinking. I can't have a glass of wine without finishing the bottle. Without wanting more. I drink until I fall asleep on the sofa.
This is day 5. It's hard. It might always be hard. But I'm not drinking again. I'm going to stop drinking and start living. Start living my life - and be the wife and mum I should be.
