"Just a small one."
"Red wine is good for you, right?"
"Large, of course."
"Go on, fill it right up!"
And it went on and on and on - for nearly 12 years. From a glass a night to a bottle nearly every night (sometimes more) and even more again at the weekend. And a Thursday and a Sunday night count as the weekend? Of course they do. And Monday too.
I have everything I have ever wanted. A husband, two children (one of each) and two dogs. My family are amazing. I'm so proud of them.
It's time to stop. I need to stop drinking. I can't have a glass of wine without finishing the bottle. Without wanting more. I drink until I fall asleep on the sofa.
This is day 5. It's hard. It might always be hard. But I'm not drinking again. I'm going to stop drinking and start living. Start living my life - and be the wife and mum I should be.
We have a lot in common. I have 2 kids, one of each. I have 2 dogs. I can't have a glass of wine without finishing the bottle. And...it's hard!
ReplyDeleteIt is hard. But that's me in bed with a cup of tea - so on to day 6 tomorrow.
DeleteThursday and Sunday are definitely the weekend when it comes to drinking :). Wednesday is 'close enough to the weekend' Monday is when you drink any leftover wine from Sunday (and then open more if it's not enough) So that leaves Tuesday as a nice alcohol free day. I have 2 kids too (not one of each) and a dog. I need to stop drinking as i don't want my kids to remember their Mum drinking most nights. I want more energy so I can be fully present for them, rather than tired and foggy. This is awful but I didn't enrole my eldest in a sport last year because it was on Friday nights, me and my husband both agreed that Friday is a drinking night. Congratulations on day 5, it gets easier as you go. L putting down the glass
ReplyDeleteThank you. It's so good to know I'm not alone. Before I stumbled on some blogs a couple of days ago, I really thought it was just me.
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